The opposite of writer’s block

Every now and then, I have a strong itch to write here but I think I have reached that point of getting-into-the-rut-of-your-day-job that I absolutely do not want to even move a finger once I am back from office and done with my essential chores (aren’t chores essential always? Anyway, you get the point).

Not that I have still managed to break that rut, but let me tell you how I landed here today (totally useless post by the way just in case you were doing something important). You know how some people have a habit of browsing news websites in their offices when they want to take a moment off from their busy schedules. For me, that’s WordPress. When I want to have a few minutes of ‘me time’ in office, I go to WordPress reader. Good coffee on the side makes those few minutes a WHOLE LOT better. So, yesterday, I did the same and I had to attend to something just when I had started, hence, couldn’t really read any posts but I went through few of the notifications. And that reminded me how much I enjoy some people’s posts! How much they make my day better! How I had never imagined that you can meet people virtually with whom you might connect on so many things! And, most importantly, how much I love writing here myself.

So, I wanted to write this post yesterday itself but not wanting to move my finger thing came into picture. But today here it is. This is what I call the opposite of writer’s block. A state of mind where you are so enamoured by the idea of writing even though you don’t really have something to write about in mind and, of course, your writing needs a hell lot of improvement anyway!

On a slightly different note, I would love to know what people reading this space might want to read next. I do have some drafts but so not ready to work on them mentally. Please comment/email if you have any suggestions, I’ll try if I can motivate myself a bit. 🙂

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Together is my favourite place to be

Together is my favourite place to be,

In your arms, getting squished in your hugs,

dealing in between whenever life bugs.

Together is my favourite place to be,

Waking up next to you,

followed by a soulful breakfast for two.

Together is my favourite place to be,

because all I want is few more lives,

to do this all over again with you.

 

Letter to my Scared Soul

When I first got to know what periods are, I didn’t understand why I am being told to be secretive about it. I let it pass thinking that this is my first time, maybe as I get more familiar with this ‘thing’, I’ll know why people talk in hush-hush tones about periods. Almost 15 years later, I still do not know why. But, more importantly, it does not bother me that I am different from people around me regarding this ‘thing’. There are many things like this about which I am certain that my thinking is very different from people I grew up with despite having the similar kind of environment, but it doesn’t bother me that how come my thinking turned out to be different than them.

Then, why it bothers me when my feelings to certain scenarios are not the same as the general opinion? Let me explain what I mean with an example. I despise fake talk. And I despise those people even more who continuously get into the loop of being extra sweet to you when they genuinely do not possess that much sweetness towards you. Now, what a ‘normal’ person would do if they meet such people – acknowledge the aforementioned extra sweet person’s extra sweetness in their own head but do not show any signs of being affected. Be totally neutral. I, on the other hand, get very, very repelled by such behavior and it totally shows in my own behaviour/body language/facial distortions etc. Okay, this is a problem but still the only thing I should do to improve myself is become more calm & more accepting towards others. It shouldn’t make me question if there’s anything wrong with me. Then, why I question myself?

That is because when someone important to you feels something’s wrong about you, you start self-doubting too. I need to remind myself – its completely okay to not feel the same way as others do. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Someone’s idea of ‘correct thing’ doesn’t have to be your idea. The one who cares for you is worried for you, that’s why they are trying to figure why you are not like them. Its okay if they question you, because they are also growing just like you in their journey. They may have some perspectives similar to the ones you don’t relate to, but do not force yourself to feel as per those perspectives too. You don’t do that unless your heart says so. Listen to your heart & do not get scared if the voice is different from the norm. More importantly, do not get scared if the voice is different from that person’s whom you love. Just like you never got scared when you couldn’t understand the deal with people & periods.

Scared soul, chill & peace out. Love is not supposed to make you have the exact same feelings about everything as your loved one’s. Truly, it hurts a lot when your loved one thinks that you are not being ‘normal’. But that’s okay. Be proud of your uniqueness, of being the joker in the pack, of being the one who stood out. Nothing to worry, its okay to feel differently as long as you know you are being true to yourself. Just calm down & try being a better version of you (& only you).