Together is my favourite place to be

Together is my favourite place to be,

In your arms, getting squished in your hugs,

dealing in between whenever life bugs.

Together is my favourite place to be,

Waking up next to you,

followed by a soulful breakfast for two.

Together is my favourite place to be,

because all I want is few more lives,

to do this all over again with you.

 

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Letter to my Scared Soul

When I first got to know what periods are, I didn’t understand why I am being told to be secretive about it. I let it pass thinking that this is my first time, maybe as I get more familiar with this ‘thing’, I’ll know why people talk in hush-hush tones about periods. Almost 15 years later, I still do not know why. But, more importantly, it does not bother me that I am different from people around me regarding this ‘thing’. There are many things like this about which I am certain that my thinking is very different from people I grew up with despite having the similar kind of environment, but it doesn’t bother me that how come my thinking turned out to be different than them.

Then, why it bothers me when my feelings to certain scenarios are not the same as the general opinion? Let me explain what I mean with an example. I despise fake talk. And I despise those people even more who continuously get into the loop of being extra sweet to you when they genuinely do not possess that much sweetness towards you. Now, what a ‘normal’ person would do if they meet such people – acknowledge the aforementioned extra sweet person’s extra sweetness in their own head but do not show any signs of being affected. Be totally neutral. I, on the other hand, get very, very repelled by such behavior and it totally shows in my own behaviour/body language/facial distortions etc. Okay, this is a problem but still the only thing I should do to improve myself is become more calm & more accepting towards others. It shouldn’t make me question if there’s anything wrong with me. Then, why I question myself?

That is because when someone important to you feels something’s wrong about you, you start self-doubting too. I need to remind myself – its completely okay to not feel the same way as others do. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Someone’s idea of ‘correct thing’ doesn’t have to be your idea. The one who cares for you is worried for you, that’s why they are trying to figure why you are not like them. Its okay if they question you, because they are also growing just like you in their journey. They may have some perspectives similar to the ones you don’t relate to, but do not force yourself to feel as per those perspectives too. You don’t do that unless your heart says so. Listen to your heart & do not get scared if the voice is different from the norm. More importantly, do not get scared if the voice is different from that person’s whom you love. Just like you never got scared when you couldn’t understand the deal with people & periods.

Scared soul, chill & peace out. Love is not supposed to make you have the exact same feelings about everything as your loved one’s. Truly, it hurts a lot when your loved one thinks that you are not being ‘normal’. But that’s okay. Be proud of your uniqueness, of being the joker in the pack, of being the one who stood out. Nothing to worry, its okay to feel differently as long as you know you are being true to yourself. Just calm down & try being a better version of you (& only you).

New Phase| Monday Mumbles 19

Monday Mumbles

Hello There!

Are you still reading my posts somehow? As it goes, I have become extremely lazy about posting. I cannot say that I don’t get enough time because I really do believe that it is all about making time & putting effort into things you want to do. So, no lies there.

I have a lot of things (especially trips) that I wanted to share here in this space & now it feels like it was ages ago that I visited those places.

I formally wanted to write a Monday Mumbles post to introduce how the new phase of my life is going. Some of you who check my Instagram know that I moved to Bangalore for my job after my post grad. A little background here – I was working for 2 years before I did my post grad, so this isn’t my first job but at that time I was working in NCR only where my parents live so it didn’t feel so much like a change in life other than, of course, the professional part of it. After all, it was my first job!

Now, however, moving to a new city and doing everything on your own is just what I always wanted. I am loving being in a new city and, as many would agree, it only helps that that city is Bangalore. Oh my God! Let’s not even get started on Bangalore, and how lovely a city it is!! Even other than this awesome city, I am loving everything about being completely on your own & the empowerment that comes with it. Even if most of the times, it just means calling the plumber, paying through your nose only to realize that what wasn’t working still isn’t properly fixed. Still, it feels so good, at least for now. Being independent in terms of finding a place for yourself, making it your home on your own is one of the best feelings ever & I am lucky to live it. It has its share of ups & downs, sometimes more downs than ups, but then there are days with many, many ups too. It is really such a good, happy feeling.

Tell me what’s up at your end? I would love to hear what everyone is upto & that will probably push me to write more often too. 🙂